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Live Every Day of Your Life

2007-07-31T18:04:00.000-07:00

*le sigh* I can not wait until Loren and I move up to the Metro. This whole using up at least 400 dollars in gas (yes I said 400 dollars!) is amazing, and the whole waking up early thing is no good either. It would almost be cheaper for us to get the motorcycles we want now rather then later.
I am so excited to get our own apartment though! I found a few places online, not to mention we'll be a lot closer to Uwagimya, that sell Asian furniture and the like. I have always wanted some of those accordion folding screens and a table where you have to kneel rather then sit on a chair. I found both! I also found the bed that I have been imagining for a while. It's a platform bed, and Loren said that it would be easy to make. The neat things about it are the bed is "sunken in" a little bit so it looks more futon size then normal mattress size. Also, the side tables are connected to the bed so it makes a "T". It's really nice looking! I can't wait! I also found a bonsai tree that I love! It's a cute little cherry blossom bonsai that ever produces fruit! It's so adorable.

Ich Liebe Es!

2007-07-28T07:46:00.000-07:00

I am sitting here at Starbucks drinking my venti Carmel frappachino with extra Carmel, Carmel drizzle. I borrowed Megan's lappy for the morning because Loren had to go to work for a few hours, and I was going to have nothing to do until he got off at 10. So I settled for surfing the web for a few hours, feeling cool, on a lappy. It's really sweet that tmobile was having a little special on wireless access. One day free, if you sign up for a subscription. So I got clever and signed up for a "pay as you go" plan that I'll have to pay for if I use it after this day! I'm using free net!
So, in other news, Loren and I have now established communication with his parents about our money goings on. As such, we talk about it at least a little bit every day since then. Ugh. I really don't want to be reminded/talk about bills and how much in debt we are every day.
We all just can't seem to find a happy medium with everything we have to collaborate on. They want everything. Constant, seems like hourly, updates on what we're paying and everything. At least on weekends, I want to get get away from all of that. Abandon the responsibilities of the week and just relax. I suppose... if it gets to out of hand then I'll say something. It if it gets to the point that we're getting a mini lecture every day and we haven't done anything wrong... the foots going down. :)
Other then working and paying bills, not much is going on. Today I'm doing my surf thang until Loren gets off at ten, then we're going up to Portland and playing with model trains for a few hours. One of my coworkers invited us to his little train group that he goes to the last Saturday of every month. Loren really likes trains so he wanted to go. Tomorrow we might go to church (it's so early, and today I woke up at... 6. With about 5 hours of sleep under my belt, I'm thinking not.) then I guess we're going some where and painting. I don't know about you, but tomorrow doesn't sound so fun. So today, right now, ba da ba ba baaa! "ich liebe es!" (1). You better know it.

--Mindy

(1; McDonald's slogan in German, "I'm loving it." Look it up buddy.)

Gloomy gloomy gloom.

2007-06-28T17:25:00.000-07:00

What a gloomy day it is today, and it started as soon as I woke up. The hose is in utter chaos, more then normal, because of the Canada trip. Right as we walked in the house, his dad was yelling at him to pick up everything in the middle of the room, and lecturing him about that. I hate that. "Good Morning, Loren and Mindy! If possible, Loren, could you pick up this and that? It's in the middle of the floor and I'm just trying to fix that. Thanks!" ...Wishful thinking.
Of course, after that, I couldn't find a friggen thing in the black hole. Also, Loren's Mom and Dad thought that once we where awake they could take a shower. Even though they woke up at... I don't know... six!
*sigh* So yah.. in a nut shell, today is as gloomy as the weather. Perhaps I'll rant some more later. For now I'm going to go look at my penguin cam.

What to do, what to do...

2007-06-25T14:22:00.000-07:00

I'm at work finishing out the last few moments of my lunch blogging. Nothing much going on the last few days. We're doing pretty well with the money charts we made for our debt. I wish that we had more money to do things with. Loren and I went and hung out with some of my co-workers and watched the first two of the star wars movies. It was really fun! Sounds like we're going to be seeing the second 2 movies in a few weeks. Other then that... It's going to be nice to be alone for a little while as Loren's family will be in Canada. I'll try to post later, bye!

Glad That’s Over With

2007-06-17T01:41:00.001-07:00

I (in collaboration Loren's mom) got all of Loren and I's finances figured out. It's going to take 16 weeks starting this week to get completely out of debt. Then, probably, another few months just to get more saved up and what not. So, all in all, we're looking at 5 months to get everything back to debt free. Honestly, I think Loren's parents and we have kind of come to some sort of understanding, and it won't be that bad. If living here for, basically, the rest of the year gets Loren and me completely out of debt and in a good position financially, I am more than ok with that. I believe that just as long as we're paying our bills, Loren's parents will kind of leave us be.

I'm nervous about my job only being seasonal, though, and how that will affect our debt budget. It is only expected to last until about September. After that, I'm not sure what's going to happen. I'm trying to tell myself that we'll deal with that bridge when and if the time comes, but I can't help but be a little scared. I'm sure that Lana (my contact with Express Personnel) won't let me be out of a job for too long. That's why we're saving up money before we leave the safety of the Gerecke house I suppose.

I can't wait till next year comes. We'll have all of our debt gone, enough for a down payment on a car and apartment (maybe even a house!), and on our own. Hopefully we'll have learned a few things about saving and managing our money too.

Lazy Typer

2007-06-12T14:31:00.000-07:00

Things are going a little better then previously posted. I went shopping on sunday, and got some pants and a pair of shoes! Now I actually have some clothes! Horray!

Loren's parents have let up a little, thank goodness! Of course not without everyone reaching our breaking point first and yelling at one another. However, all is... ok now.

Work is really fun, everyone is really nice and welcoming there. :) It's nice to get away from the house.

Just a little update for now!

I just want to die and start all over

2007-06-05T15:43:00.001-07:00

The car's dead, and so is just about any chance we have of getting to work. I finally get a really awesome job, and I'm probably going to lose it. Loren's parents where then only option we had of getting a car, and they're saying don't get a car. *sigh* Everything's so messed up right now; I don't even know where to start. Family, Friends, Work… ugh.

Loren's parents are trying to do everything for us. Control our every move. I my rope is ever so slowly unraveling and I'm just about ready to go nuts. I know I keep say thing that, however I just… ugh. Everything is just screwing up.

Thin Ice

2007-05-20T22:19:00.000-07:00

I was depressed today. I don’t know why, but since I woke up I was just a little snappy at everyone. Even at Loren’s dad, I snapped a little when he was irritating me about reminding Loren for the fifth time about his interview tomorrow at eight. I don’t know why I was down all day. I just wasn’t myself. Even a few times I thought that I really just want to go live at my parent’s house. Loren’s parents try to control everyone’s life or at least Loren and I’s. They don’t support what he and I want. If they don’t want it then we get no help. We’d have all the help in the world from them if we wanted to live in Salem, go to the community college, and work here. However, because we want to live and work in the Portland area, we have no support. In fact we get less then support, we get pressure, stress, and negativity from them because of what we want to do with our lives. Their personal desires and agendas are keeping them from doing what they really should be doing. Supporting their son. I am tired of catering to their wants. Working against us is only going to give us more problems than anything. By helping Loren find a job in Salem, for example, while we are applying for jobs in Wilsonville and such they are actually making us spend more money in the long run on gas and car maintenance. Because we won’t turn down any job offer, it’s most likely that I’ll get a job in Wilsonville and he’ll get a job in Salem with his parents help. It’s stressful trying to find a job and apartment alone, but fighting against people so bent on forcing the opposite of what we want is impossible to deal with. My patience is running quite thin. Let’s hope we can get away before it brakes.

Beach!

2007-05-14T22:21:00.001-07:00

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Originally uploaded by pyro.muse.

Loren and I went to the beach today. Everyone thought we where going to Corvallis to do stuff, but nope! We ran away from the world to stroll along the beach and find cool things. I've added a starfish I dubbed "George" to my collection. Heehee. We also found a fish that we have absolutly no idea what kind of fish it was, but it was just laying on the beach alive! Loren used one of our flipflops to try to move him back into the ocean. After a while we got him in a position to swim back in. We saw him still float along his side for awhile out in the ocean. Loren says maybe it was just his time to go. Awww. All in all it was a really fun time! Wanna see more pictures? Check out myFlickr set. Bye!

Who needs a title?

2007-05-10T23:09:00.000-07:00

Vista, Vista, la de da de daa! *does a jig* Yeah, I downloaded Vista and installed it... so far the only real problem I've had was some occasional freezing. Where the restart pressin' finger has to be whipped out. It's at the most oddest times too. Ah well... nothing to tricky. There aren't to many "gadgets" for it, and no audio drivers exist yet. However I will be able to deal with that when I install Mac OS X onto another hard drive. Then I'll be good to go.

I'm hoping Loren and I will be settled in and organized by the beginning of next year. I have my eye on a MacBook Pro. By then Mac OS X Leopard will be released by then. Good stuff. Good stuff...

Things are looking good job wise. Well for Loren that is. I'm not sure what I'm going to be able to do here in Salem. I'd really like to do a clerical job, but I don't seem to have enough of the skills anyone wants. Hopefully something will manifest itself and soon.

Using a car as a stress ball

2007-05-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

I forgot how well driving at night works for stress. It was very nice indeed.

Everything still looks crappy with a hint of getting better, life wise, but at least we can deal with that without people in our face. Loren’s going to see if one of his friends can get him a job with the state. Pros: Good money and good benefits. Cons: In Salem and it’s a grave shift yet again.

Maybe it’s just that we’re/I’m stressed right now, but I feel like the whole time we’ll be living in Salem there going to be a gray cloud over me. Keeping me from being as happy as I could be. I know that life could be so much worse than this. However… it’s not. Until it is that bad, my life currently is always going to be a little overcast. Knowing that I could be somewhere other than I’ve always been for the past, like, 15 years.

I just feel like we’re going to be living in a cheap (as in low cost not crappy… although) apartment with a cheap car and cheep stuff in Salem forever. Because that’s all Loren’s parents seem to focus on is cheap things. Why buy this nice fridge, for example, when you can buy this fridge that will do what you need it to, without all the fixings, for half the price? Because we can afford it, and it’s nice to have nice things. It’s nice to have a pool and a washer and dryer in the apartment. Sure is a little more expensive than renting an apartment with none of that included, but it makes life so much nicer and easier. Just because you can get by with the bare minimum doesn’t mean we can.

*yawn* I believe that’s enough ranting for now. Tomorrow Loren, Amy, and I are going to bush park to take fun pictures since it has been so nice out the past few days. So, hopefully, I’ll have some new pictures up soon, and I’ll finally have some pictures of Loren and I together! Yay! The day after that, Wednesday, we’re supposed to be going to the Lancaster mall and hang out with Keith and probably Megan. He works at the photo studio in the mall, so we might get even more pictures! I’m glad we have some fun stuff planned. I just hope no one comes to rain on our parade.

Breathing calmy once more

2007-05-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

Aaah. Who ever thought that my parent’s house would be a place we would go to get away from stress? Not I! I remember always going over to Loren’s house to get away from my parents in high school. However now it’s so nice to be over here. It’s quiet (and I mean quiet!), no distractions, no lectures… just peace. It’s wonderful.

My dad might be able to get Loren a job at the place where he works as a maintenance person. I think that’d be nice, but its suuuper hard for me to get a job in Salem. I’m not sure why, but I just can’t. There are really no businesses here that want the skills I have. The only jobs I’ve had in Salem where minimum wage paying jobs! One was Subway and the other was a grocery store. Yet in Portland there are quite a few nice jobs and they pay well too. Thus it’s either I commute or find someone in Salem to hire me.

I am just so tired of Salem it’s maddening. I’m young! I can move where ever I choose! All I have to find is a job and an apartment. Loren’s parents think otherwise. They say that we should get everything figured out, work for a few years, save some money, and then move wherever. In a few years I’m going to start wanting children! I’ll be 24. I want kids before I’m 30. I would think that finding a place you like then settling down would be the best idea. But maybe not, who friggen knows. All I know is that I hate Salem with a passion.

Today's rant is brought to you by the letters "F" and "U"

2007-05-06T15:16:00.000-07:00

I'm almost done with this blogger coolness. Just a few more tweaks and it's done for. Then to move on to my myspace. It's going to look cool! You'll just have to check it out later today.

Offline, I'm dying. Today will mark the, I believe, 4th time I've cried within a month. With looking for a job, having no money, bill collectors, and moving into Loren's parent's house it's so stressful. However I would be able to handle that. Factor in Loren's Dad, and occasionally Mom, ranting and lecturing us every day (no lie) about one thing or another, I'm going to go snap before the month is over! Seriously. Every idea or desire we've had that involves us moving or working outside of the Salem area has been met with a long lecture and ultimately a road block. Loren and I have gone from wanting to move out of state to wanting to move out of Salem to just wanting to move out of this effing house. They want us to stay here until we’ve paid off all or our debt and then find a place close by. Fuck NO! You honestly have to be here for a day to understand. They just got home from Home Depot. There wasn’t even a hello. Just right back in to lecturing, what they were doing before they left, about something that’s not even their business!! I just want to kill something. *sigh* That’s enough for now. You’ll hear about this mess later I’m sure.

At the Beginning

2007-05-05T16:33:00.000-07:00

So I'm starting a new blog. I think blogger and I will get along just fine. It seems I will be able take advantage of stickam and twitter's cool features. Myspace doesn't seem to like Java, and blogger does so... I less than three you blogger! This is simply a test post so, i'll make it brief. Adios!