7.5.07
Using a car as a stress ball

I forgot how well driving at night works for stress. It was very nice indeed.

Everything still looks crappy with a hint of getting better, life wise, but at least we can deal with that without people in our face. Loren’s going to see if one of his friends can get him a job with the state. Pros: Good money and good benefits. Cons: In Salem and it’s a grave shift yet again.

Maybe it’s just that we’re/I’m stressed right now, but I feel like the whole time we’ll be living in Salem there going to be a gray cloud over me. Keeping me from being as happy as I could be. I know that life could be so much worse than this. However… it’s not. Until it is that bad, my life currently is always going to be a little overcast. Knowing that I could be somewhere other than I’ve always been for the past, like, 15 years.

I just feel like we’re going to be living in a cheap (as in low cost not crappy… although) apartment with a cheap car and cheep stuff in Salem forever. Because that’s all Loren’s parents seem to focus on is cheap things. Why buy this nice fridge, for example, when you can buy this fridge that will do what you need it to, without all the fixings, for half the price? Because we can afford it, and it’s nice to have nice things. It’s nice to have a pool and a washer and dryer in the apartment. Sure is a little more expensive than renting an apartment with none of that included, but it makes life so much nicer and easier. Just because you can get by with the bare minimum doesn’t mean we can.

*yawn* I believe that’s enough ranting for now. Tomorrow Loren, Amy, and I are going to bush park to take fun pictures since it has been so nice out the past few days. So, hopefully, I’ll have some new pictures up soon, and I’ll finally have some pictures of Loren and I together! Yay! The day after that, Wednesday, we’re supposed to be going to the Lancaster mall and hang out with Keith and probably Megan. He works at the photo studio in the mall, so we might get even more pictures! I’m glad we have some fun stuff planned. I just hope no one comes to rain on our parade.

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